• Susan L.

Own your story

It was late September when I finally finished my memoir, In Search of Rainbows: A daughter’s story of loss, hope, and redemption. After more than two long years of writing, sobbing, procrastinating, over-thinking, and re-thinking, my story was finally done!

Seeing my thoughts, feelings, and life events in print gave my story a purpose but felt personal and somewhat intimidating. Now all I had to do was share it with the world. I suddenly had serious doubts! Before I knew it, fear took over, and I started having second thoughts.

Confidence is something I have always struggled with, even though I try not to let it show on the outside. Getting past my feelings of vulnerability was a big step forward in this journey.

Fear is a primal human response to danger, but it can also stop you dead in your tracks and prevent you from completing your goals. It is that voice that whispers in your ear and tells you that you are a fake, and you don’t deserve the good things that are happening to you.

So, what did I do? I did what comes naturally to me. I listened to my inner voice and started journaling about all the things that were bothering me. I also prayed for guidance and courage. Writing and faith have always been a part of my life and has gotten me through some tough times. When I made the decision to write a memoir, it felt like a calling, something I was always meant to do.

After some deep soul searching, I realized my fears were all part of a pattern caused by echoes from the past. I remembered all the reasons why I decided to write about my life story and began to trust my instincts once again.

I developed a new mindset, and my fears soon subsided. I realized that by owning my story, I was no longer afraid. When we deny our story, it defines us. Embracing our story and truly accepting it makes us brave and gives us the courage to be who we are.

We all have that inner voice that speaks to us. It can inspire us or hold us back from life-changing opportunities. It’s a choice. Be brave!

Keep looking up!